7.27.2012

Confession

I don't know what the shit im blogging now..
I guess some people will be like..What?
Confession? On a blog? Go to the church and hide inside that confession box la.
Argh..whatever la.
I wanted to blog something nice bt end up emo again.
Yes i will make it the end of all those emo post again..okay?
I already trying to hear some good song while blogging this..
Tears had already all dry up..
I don't know what to say..
I been waiting for this guy that now wasn't really mine now and ever?
Yea..he don't worth to be with me.
I guess i put too much trust on him..i guess?
This is crazy cuz i had twice break up in a year? 
I know,i had been this freaking emo and heart broken for this half years,
yes i'm gonna end it..
I'm done with wiping my tears,
having my tissue box sleep with me every night,
falling into the same lies again.

I hope i really could make it..
not just stupid talk and write.
I'm gonna forget you this bad ass and i'm gonna concentrate on my Final.
Yea,bet you always say i'm childish,
you know when u really love someone?
You will be always silly around him/her.
Who that idiotic ppl that going to be so serious when they are together?
It's not like i'm a picky one,
i just want someone who could care about my feeling,
can be TRUST, 
i can COUNT ON,
i can be funny around him, laughing together,
is that hard?
Oh i dont know..
Maybe i'm blind,
i don't know how to choose a BF wisely,
too young they say,
still have many chance they say,
i mean how many break up u all still wan me to happen again,
Good guy?
of cuz, they are basically good when they were new,
but i dunno how bout others,
they met True love,
some met Heart Break until they wanna suicide,
i almost had the same thg happen to me once,
bt i told myself to be strong..
u know u don't worth dying for that person.
How much your tears drop he wont even care.
I fell for this guy this year,
he change me into a cheerful girl, 
a very happy one,
i thought we will never be apart?
Cuz i never thought of that,
because i trust him?
I trust him so much..until me myself changed alot.
Not even bout the appearance,
is my attitude,
from childish into a matured one..
I dont know why he cant realise my changes..
I mean i'm really that bad or it just a reason so u can dump anyone easily?
to u all boys out there,
if u really can let go someone this easily,
NEVER CONFESS TO A GIRL U LOVE HER,
or else..
please go get a high building and jumps down from it.
Okay fine forget it,
i'll stop being this kind of stupid thing,
i can't belive i can stand his swag attitude all the time,
he ego-ness,
his selfish attitude,
that coldness towards me,
those unrespect attitude,
you know dude?
Someday you will get back the same Karma.
It's not like i curse you,
cuz if u do smtg bad to others,
you know u will get the pay back.
Thanks for lying me to wait for you,
say you're gonna come back to me when u settle all your thing and play invisible and
disappear for this few months.
Thanks for making me a joke which make all your friend laughing at me,
and thanks for telling me i'm just a friend on your birthday.
You got it dude, ur ugly life now.

You had your life,so do mine.
I'm so gonna burn that ugly flower u gave me.
Goodbye loser.


1 comment

  1. Chillout babe. Things will get better if the bad ones are gone. Trust me been thru tht tons of time. Dont give up and have faith in yourself. Xoxo -Ay-

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